Blessings!!!

Malachi 3:10 Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it.
GOD IS GOOD. I'm sure all of you know that but it's something I want to shout from the mountain top. I could list everything that he has done for us in the past year, but I really want to focus on what he has done for us in the past week.
One thing I have been struggling with for a little bit is the feeling that when I do something "good" for God I should get something in return. As humans we may feel that God is obligated to give us things. Then we are shaken into reality and remember that God is a gracious God by not striking us dead the first time we do something. This past week has been a great opportunity to remember that God is good and it's not about what I want but what he wants for in my life.
This past week has been a faith building week. On Wednesday morning I woke up to a pile of water on m kitchen floor to later discover that it was coming from the ceiling over our hot water heater. Water was everywhere. So, on josh's day off, I had to wake him up so we could figure out how to make it stop. After a while of trying Josh figured out how to turn it off and where the water was coming from. A pipe going to our swamp cooler (the unit on top of our house to cool it in the summer)had burst. To get a better look josh went over to our friends house to get a ladder. On his way back the ladder broke his back window! BAM!!! It was gone. Knowing that the pipe and the window both needed to be replaced, we knew that we would not have enough money to fix them both and take our vacation to NJ. Like I said, this all happened on Wednesday and our flight was scheduled to leave Tuesday morning. I had to make unpleasant phone calls to y parents telling them that we would not be able to go due to everything that had happened. I spent 90% of the day in my P.J.'s with my hood on my head crying. I was so devastated. I felt like it was all my fault and I was so mad at myself. While all this was going on I knew that God was in control and that if He wanted us to go then he would provide a way for it to happen. I knew that nothing was beyond Him, but I didn't want to sit and wait for him to make something happen. My prayers were all about peace. Peace that if we were not going to go then my heart will be at peace and that I would still enjoy this holiday and remember that this is not about me or about what I want, it's about the best gift that God could give. I was also praying that the tears would stop. I hated crying in front of Josh.
On Wednesday night I have a girls bible study at my house and Josh has "man group" with a bunch on men from our church. I had a great bible study. We didn't have a ton of girls show up so we just sat around and talked. It was just what I needed. A good time of fellowship. Josh had a good night as well and was able to share with the men what had happen.
"Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it." I was not prepared for these flood gates. Josh was fantastic and did so much number crunching and did everything he could to comfort me. I have such an amazing husband. BLESSING!!! Joshua is growing and healthy and had adjusted very well to our busy schedule. BLESSING!!! On Thursday Josh got a call from one of them men from man group who told him that we needed to call him when we were going to get the window fixed because the men from man group put some money together and wanted to pay for the window. I also was told by a friend of ours that they would take the car and get the window fixed while we were away and they would pay for it and we could pay them back whenever. BLESSINGS!! I was getting constant phone calls from family and friends telling us that they were praying for us. BLESSINGS! I was talking to a friend of mine on facebook and she wanted to know where we banked because she and her husband wanted to give us a monetary gift. BLESSINGS!!! On Sunday a member of our church handed him an envelope of money. BLESSINGS!!! God did answer part of my prayer and he did give me peace. He gave me so much more then peace. He did not, however, answer my no more crying prayer because I couldn't stop crying tears of joy. He has opened his floodgates with blessings.
Even now, as I am sitting in the hotel room when I should be on my way to my sisters house in NJ, I know that God is still pouring out his blessings on us. We were able to stay in a really nice yet inexpensive hotel were Josh has a gym where he can workout and where we can park for FREE while we are away. BLESSING!!! We were also able to secure our seats for our flight tomorrow morning. BLESSING!!!! In the afternoon the weather said it was going to rain/snow tonight into tomorrow. As of 30 minutes ago the weather has changed to NO rain/snow at all.
God is in control! I know that, if it was the Lords will for us not to go, I know that he would still bless us in every way. YES I am extremely blessed this time around because God blessed me with what I wanted.

My Life in Black and White

The other night I couldn't fall asleep. You ever have one of those nights when you just can't turn off your brain? Well, that was my night. Something that kept swirling around in my head was my love for Photography. I really do love to look through the lens of my camera and being able to focus on a small portion of God's beautiful creation. I feel as if it is a gift that he has given to us so better appreciate His gift of creation.
Sometimes I think about what it would be like to sell come of my pictures, but then again would I really want to put myself out there like that? It's one thing to post them and have people say how much they like them or how cute my son is. But to put a price on them and to see if some one would like them enough to buy one is very nerve racking. It's like I would make myself completely vulnerable. I don't know if I am ready for that.
I just feel like my Photography is my perspective in life. It's how I view where I live and what I love. Someone could go to the same place as me but take completely different picture. That's one of the beauties about what I love to do.
A few months ago I really fell in love with Black and White Photography. I thought that was a little funny given that photography was originally all take in black and white. Now we have wonderful digital cameras that can magnify colors, and yet I wanted to take pictures in black and white. So I created a little project for myself. I wanted to photograph parts of my life in black and white. Putting my fears and nerves aside I want to share them with you. It's pretty self explanatory.... so here goes.

Mason Anderson

Most of you already know this, but I love photography. I have had the opportunity to take pictures of my nieces and nephews through out the years and now I have my own son to torture with home made photo shoots. I have also been able to fall in love with the desert by taking pictures of it. The sunsets here never get old out here.
Today I had the opportunity to take pictures for my good friend Kendra of her 4 week old son Mason Anderson. I thought I would give a little preview of what I took today. Hope Andy and Kendra like them!!!

A Week Off

Unfortunately I was unable to run this week. On Monday night I got hit with some kind of cold that attacked my entire body. I thought that if I was feeling even a little better I would attempt a run, but it's been a hard couple of days. I know that this is just a small set back to what I am trying to accomplish. But I am not giving up. Everyday I would think about running and wish that I could. I can hardly sit on the couch without coughing up a lung. My hope is to start up again Monday morning. After talking to my brother, I think I should aim to run 4-5 times a week. I am starting with such small increments that I think I could do it.
I look forward to the day when I can run a mile and not want to kill myself. Plus, if any one was watching me run for a little and then walk and then run again they probably think I'm crazy or lazy. Something I didn't think about is how different it's going to feel running in NJ with all the humidity. Should be interesting.

Running week 1

I decided to write a blog after every week running. I thought by doing this I would be more motivated to run since (hopefully) more people would be checking up on me. And I hope, by being completely honest about how it's going it will help me achieve my goal. I also know that those who are reading this will not be insensitive to my goal. When I told some people their reaction was "well... a 5k doesn't seem like it would be to hard". ouch not nice. I have never been much of a runner. The last time I ran any kind of distance was in college for softball and I had to run once around the perimeter of the softball/baseball field which was probably a little under a half a mile and then I was done running. We had to sprint more and even with them I was expected to be slow so there wasn't much point in pushing myself. I want something more now. Yes I would love this to melt away the baby weight, but it can't be just about that anymore because I know that as soon as I fit into my jeans I would stop. I am still trying to fine a long term motivator. I'll keep you posted on that one. So here goes.
Karen was the one who told me about the program Couch to 5k. It's not that I really wanted to run a 5k, but I wanted a plan to follow. I knew that if I just did it on my own I would run for a minute and then call it a day. Sooner or later I would just stop because I would not see the results that I wanted. This program works you up to running a 5k. This past week I had to do a warm up walk for 5 minutes, then run for a 60 seconds and walk for 90 seconds. The first day, I thought that I really sucked and hoped that it would get better. I ran in the morning around 7. I don't want to go until I feed the baby and going any later it would be incredibly HOT! The second time, I only thought that I sucked during the last few minutes. The hardest part during this run was that my pants were falling down. The first day I wore shorts and they were fine but I have the unfortunate thickness of the legs and the ride up is a little uncomfortable. Then tonight I didn't think that I sucked at all. Tonight there was something different. I really enjoyed running while I watched the sun set. I had to remind myself to look at the watch so I didn't over run or over walk. I loved that no matter where I looked I saw beautiful mountains. On my left I had a huge mountain that was being lit up by a gorgeous yellow and orange sun. On my right, there was a ginormous mountain range that had pink tips and a purple sky because of the sunset. I think tonight was the first time that I truly appreciated the beauty of the state that I live in. I use to think that running on a treadmill would be better because I am self conscience of people seeing me run. But tonight I didn't care. I was enjoying God's creations. I kept listening to Chris Thomlin "How Great is Our God". If I had any sense of balance I would have closed my eyes while I ran to praise our creator for his magnificent creation.
I kind of think that my weeks will continue this way. First two days I will think that I suck and the third (and fourth) day will be better experience.

I LOVE MY SON

It absolutely amazed at the amount of love that pours out of me for my son. He is so amazing. I know that everyone thinks that their kids is the best, but I think my son is pretty awesome. In these few short weeks I have already learned so much about him. First of all, he loves to sleep. Most newborns do, but he REALLY likes it. In the afternoon he has what I call "a noise nap". He will lay completely still for an hour and then for about a half hour he'll make noises and ball up his fists but he is still asleep. Then about 10 minutes before he makes up he has a nice big poop. And boy, does my son poop. Today I had someone ask me if he has ever peed on me while I was changing him. Thank goodness it has only happen once. Well, right at that moment he poops!!!! All over his nice clean outfit. Hope that's a one time thing.
I love his awake time. It's becoming a little longer everyday. He loves to look at lights but doesn't like it when the sun is in his eyes. He makes the funnies faces. He likes to be read to. I try to sing and read to him every night before I lay him in his pack-n-play.
On the other hand, there is still so much for me to learn about him. He is so much a mystery. I can't wait to get to know him better. It amazes me, that I spent nine months carrying him, 13 hours laboring, and now almost three weeks getting to know him. I pray everyday that God will keep him safe. That he will help him grow into a strong, godly man. And that I, as the parent, will not get in the way of what the Lord has planned for him.

Happy Fathers Day

I am very excited that this is Josh's first fathers day and that he get's to celebrate it with his son!!!! It's only been a little over a week that we have had our beautiful boy, but it has been awesome to see father and son interact. Josh has been so amazing since the beginning. Most of you already know the story of how we found out we were pregnant but I'll tell it again. I had left work because I wasn't feeling well and it was coming up on that time of the month. I had a pregnancy test already in the house so I decided to take it just so I knew that I wasn't pregnant and I could stop thinking about it till next month. Turns out there was two lines but the one was really light so I didn't want to get my hopes up. I walk the test to josh who was laying on his bed and said "I don't know if this is right but I think there are two lines." So josh did what he does best. He looked online to see what a light line meant. Two more pregnancy test later we were convinced. He came to every doctors appointment with me. He signed us up on Babycenter.com before I could. He made sure I was drinking water and taking my prenatal. He cleaned up the lasagna I puked up in our kitchen sink. He has been so good to me and to the baby from the beginning. I am so grateful for him and all that he has done.

Now, fast forward a few months and it is getting down to the wire. He is still taking great care of me and the baby. He was so calm the entire pregnancy. When I would get nervous or panicky about something, he would always calm me down with reassuring words or a joke. Then the big day came and he was amazing. I hadn't packed the diaper bag or our bad to the hospital, so once they said we needed to come in because my water broke it was a little crazy. Josh did a great job putting together everything we needed for the baby and got the car seat installed in record time.

He never left my side. He was so tired but he held my hand through every contraction. He told me that I COULD do this and that I was doing great. Most of you know that I thought he was lying to me, but it was nice to hear. He was so strong for me. And the emotion that he felt over whelmed me with happiness. Once the baby was born, there was so many emotions in the air and the look on josh's face was so beautiful. He was a proud father of a baby boy.
Now they get to spend good quality time together. Josh will get up with me in the night to burp and change him and that's a huge help. I like to watch them as they make funny faces at each other. I look forward to they day when the Mets are on TV and they can watch the game together (hopefully the mets will win)
All this being said, I wanted to wish my amazing husband "happy first fathers day". You are already an awesome father and I look forward to continuing this journey with you. Thank you for being who you are and serving the Lord. You are an inspiration to me. I love you!

The baby bump

And the count down is on. The baby is due june 19th so we are coming up on a month away. it feels like it has taken forever to get here but at the same time, I feel like it has creeped up on us. Josh has been so great these past few months. He has been to every appointment with me, he makes sure I am drinking enough water, he rubs my back, he makes my comfort a very high priority, and he's nice enough to lie to me and tell me that I don't look fat.
I have really enjoyed being pregnant. I love laying down and watching my belly move around. It's like a little chick is trying to break out of it's egg. Today, the baby and I had a nice talk. I told him/her that the can come out soon, but he/she needs to try and not hurt me. We'll see how that goes. I have to make a conscience effort NOT to waddle when I walk. Plus bending over is getting more and more difficult. but I do my best.
Right now I think I'm int he panic part of the pregnancy. I am just feeling a little unprepared. I am going to the hospital tomorrow so I can look into birthing class and get a packing list for what we will need for the hospital. Josh just ordered the coming home outfit which I can't wait to see (it's a surprise to me)and the church is throwing a baby shower the first weekend in June. I think I will feel better once we have a pack and play just so I know that the baby has a place to sleep. A dresser crib and rocker would be nice, but lets not get ahead of ourselves.
I love my belly and I love the person inside of it but I didn't want to gross people out with my belly. But now that all of you are not a drive away, I thought maybe you'd like to see. Plus I want to know if you guys think I am having a boy or girl.

Crazy Day

So the other day we had really crazy weather. When I woke up to let Hugo out josh said there was some snow one the ground. Because that has happen before I wasn't to worried about it. So this is what it looked like around 8AM.


Then about two hours later we were leaving to get some breakfast and get Josh's pay check and this is what it looked like outside.



It snowed all day. Sometimes it was little flakes and then other times it was huge heavy flakes. The common question of the day was "is it still snowing?" It's just so odd to me. It was nice to take Hugo outside and watch him run around. Our video camera was at church but I'm sure this might happen again so I'll take some video next time. Now it's a day later and there is hardly any snow on the ground. I think we had about 4 inches and now there is nothing. Maybe next time I'll build a snow man just to see how long he would last.

Lets go Mets!

Lets Go METS!!!!!!!!!!



Just thought you'd like to see what I did to Hugo the other day. I don't think he was to excited to be dressed up. He kept trying to get it off but I just had to take a few pictures first. Maybe I'll trim it down so it's more a dog shirt rather then a little kid t-shirt. Hope you enjoy.

Easter reflection

I'm sure all of you know that this past Sunday was Palm Sunday. I enjoy this day because Palm Sunday was the day that I asked Jesus to come into my heart when I was 5 years old. I remember being in Sunday school with the felt board talking about Palm Sunday and what that all meant. I don't remember if there was an invitation given by the teacher or if everything just clicked in my head. But none the less, as a 5 year old I asked Jesus to come into my heart. I also asked on the way home from church and then again later that day while I was watching TV. I don't know why I remember this day so clearly, but I'm glad that I do. So Palm Sunday holds a special place in my heart.

This past Sunday, Josh had to take prayer requests and pray for the offering (a normal Sunday job for him) but before he did that He shared something that was on his heart that I have been thinking about ever since. He talked about how amazing it would have been to be there, in the crowd, watching Jesus humbly entering the city on the donkey and how we would be able to shout "Hosanna!!!!!!!" and be so joyful that He was there. But then.... fast forward just a few days.

You have Jesus being beaten and mocked, slowly dying. Would you be in that crowd as well? I think most of us would say I wouldn't want to be... but probably... yes I would be in that crowd. Why? because we are sinners. Even his disciples chose to say that they didn't know Him and watched. There was only a hand full that stood at a distance weeping because of what was happening. It really makes me upset to think that we can so easily change what "crowd" we are in. Church people we say "Hosanna Hosanna" others or in temptation we say "Crucify Crucify!"
Jesus died because I cry out crucify. He is glorified when I shout Hosanna. I hope and pray that Hosanna is more pronounced in my life. I thank God for his grace and mercy over me. I do not deserve it, but I am thankful for it and I will continue to use it to better my relationship with Him and to help further HIS kingdom. I wish all of you a happy Easter. Enjoy spending time with your family celebrating the greatest gift that was ever given.
Acts 1:4-10
On one occasion, while he was eating with them, he gave them this command: "Do not leave Jerusalem, but wait for the gift my Father promised, which you have heard me speak about. For John baptized with[a] water, but in a few days you will be baptized with the Holy Spirit."
So when they met together, they asked him, "Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?"
He said to them: "It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."
After he said this, he was taken up before their very eyes, and a cloud hid him from their sight.
They were looking intently up into the sky as he was going, when suddenly two men dressed in white stood beside them. 11"Men of Galilee," they said, "why do you stand here looking into the sky? This same Jesus, who has been taken from you into heaven, will come back in the same way you have seen him go into heaven."

a small update

Hello everyone! Just wanted to give a small update on how things are going here in windy Winnemucca. We have now been in our house for one week. My days have been spent unpacking boxes and getting things all set up. I think it's starting to feel like home. In some rooms (the kitchen) there is so much space I don't know what to do about it. Others (the bathroom) are missing things (a medicine cabinet)that I am used to having. We are adjusting just fine. Hugo is doing much better. He was very sick and is now back to his old self. The other day we had a little scare with him and a horse. There are three horses behind us and there is only a barb wire fence between us and them. They seem like nice horses but I don't want to find out the hard way. Hugo slipped under the fence and when trotting over to one of the horses. So I start screaming at him because I have no idea what the horse will do. The horse started to nip at him and i freaked out! I am screaming at him to come back. finally he gets scared and runs back. I was furious! So mad i picked him up and carried him back to the house (he just got a bath so he wasn't wearing his collier). Other then that, I think he is enjoying it here. There are so many dogs. I don't think there is a family without a dog. One night it sounded like that scene from 101 Dalmations. The one where they are passing on the message about the missing puppies. Josh quoted it as we were walking into the house and it made me laugh.
Church is going well. Josh is spending long days at church getting things done and getting to know people. The Sr high and Jr high (i think) has been going very well. We had a leaders meeting to help plan out the spring and summer and I think it's going to be great. They have some good suggestions and seem really into helping out these kids. I think the kids are taking kindly to us. There are a few activities already planned and there are many more to come. With me not having a job right now, I have had the opportunity to help out with all kinds of stuff. I want to be involved as much as I can because I know the amount of help I will be able to give this summer will be limited. So if I can do more now, maybe that will lesson the load for the summer.
I am going to start working soon. I am going to be doing day care from my home. I put up flyer's on Friday and have one interview and another one this coming week. I am really excited about this. I feel like this is something I can handle and most importantly I can do this and stay home with my kids. From what I hear there is a real need for it out here and I can be flexible with Josh's schedule. I am trusting that the Lord will provide me with the families I will need to make sure that Josh and I are OK. He has been good to us so far so that is encouraging.
The pregnancy is going well. I am 29 weeks now. I feel the baby moving all the time and I really like the feeling. It makes me pray more and worry less. We are getting some furniture from a family in the church and I am hoping to paint some time soon. We have been blessed so far with what we have been given but there is still a list of things we are missing. This church is planning on throwing us a shower so hopefully that will help.
Once I am content with how the house looks I will take some pictures and have them posted. Or you can just set up a time and we can give you a skype tour of the house. Josh is really good at these and I think he really enjoys giving them.

NJ VS NV

For many of us it’s not until you leave something, its then when you realize how much you are going to miss. I have tried not to think of these things for the past few months. When I knew Josh and I were going to be leaving New Jersey I didn’t want to think of the things/ people I was going to leave behind. I didn’t want to face that reality until it was totally and completely necessary. Now, sitting in a bedroom of one of the church members house after making a 5 day trip across the beautiful United States, I have to think about it. Some things are small and will seem silly. Others are more important and irreplaceable. So in no particular order… here goes


Ocean City NJ- Last year I wrote a blog about how much I loved ocean city. Maybe its just out of ignorance because my family never vacationed on any other beach (other then a few random times in Florida). But OCNJ has some of the best memories of my life. Just the smell coming over the 9^th st bridge is enough to make anyone fall in love with the town. The beaches are beautiful and the company you keep when you’re there is never disappointing. You’re always surrounded by friends and family. The board walk is another perk to the town. It has tones to do no matter what your age. The mini golf will be missed. And of course there is always people watching. If you’ve never done people watching you can probably figure out what it is by the title alone. But its one of the best things to do on the boards while you are finishing off your Kohr Brothers Ice Cream or your nice and hot bucket of French fries. I’ll have to figure out a way to get a sweat shirt from the “Shirt Shack”. It because a traditions for me and Josh to get a new one every year. Now that we have a baby on the way he/she will need a matching one as well.

Driving convenience – I’ve heard people joke about NJ saying that it takes 30 minutes to get anywhere in NJ. It’s kind of true. When josh and I lived in Lawrenceville it took 30 minutes to get to work and my parents. Josh also worked 9 miles away from our apartment and it took him about 45 minutes. On the other hand everything you need is within a 30 minute. Sometimes there is more than one of the same store in that 30 minute radius. Sometimes the big question is “where do you want to eat?” and it’s too hard to decide because there are way too many choices. Plus there are a lot of city’s close by to go hang out in. That is not the case out in NV. One of the biggest adjustments is the convenience of food. Every morning (so far) I take josh to the church and he wants something for breakfast. How many places can you think of off the top of your head that you can eat for breakfast? Was Duncan donuts cross your mind? It does mine… every morning. Instead I have to go to the grocery store to get food. I think they are learning me by name which I thought would have taken a few years.

Dry!!!- it's so dry out here. I had a problem with dry skin for a while during the winter months like most people do. I think it was worse this year because of being pregnant but it was under control. NOT ANY MORE!!! I can put a bottle of lotion on and BAM I walk outside and I start cracking all over the place. There is just no moisture in the air. I guess I have to be one of those people that keeps lotion in there purse. Just something else to get used to.

Job- Right now I do not have a job. I've always had a job. Even when I was on College... I worked for the athletic department by washing the sports uniforms. Then after college I was a Nanny and then into retail. I have done a lot over the years and have had a lot of experience. Apparently that means nothing out here because I can't get a job. No one is hiring. I don't even get to tell anyone all the fun stuff I have learned or done. This is a humbling and faith building time for me. I am a hard worker and I can do anything you train me to do. This is a God thing. I have to trust that He is in control and that he has not forgotten me. I have to suck up my pride and understand that things are going to be different for me out here. You know when your at work and you day dream about what life would be like without having to work everyday....ummm not as great as my day dreams. Maybe if we were in our house or the baby was here.... but right now I travel the same three roads. The road to church, the road to the house where Hugo is staying and the road back the our temporary place. I am SOOOOOO grateful for God providing this Job for Josh. It is soooo great to see him in HIS office. And to know that he has a support system at the church. That he is happy being involved and getting the ball rolling with lessons and activities. I know he has a lot of work to do and it is going to take a long time to make this group of students his group but this is great for him. He is going to thrive because he is in his element and in the will of the LORD. We will always have a special place in our hearts for the students we left in NJ. But this is part of transition. This is part of Gods plan. I look forward to posting blogs of these kids so you all can get to know them. The Lord will provide for us.... this I know in my heart... it's my head that needs convincing.

City papers- I’ve never been a big reader of the paper, but I do know that my dad loves reading the paper. It was a good source of information and kept him in the loop as to what was going on. ESPN has better shows on while the news is playing (in my opinion). Anyway, it is nice when the paper is delivered to your door step every day or you can just swing by a store/coffee shop/gas station basically anywhere. Plus you have the option of many different kinds of papers; the local paper, the Wall Street journal, the Philadelphia inquirer ect…. Here in NV there is a paper called “The Humbolt sun” and it comes out on Tuesday and Friday. The paper is chock full of hot happenings of what’s going on in town. Most of the paper consists of about 3 main stories and lots of school sports. Then there is a page for jobs (which there are none) and places/ pets/ livestock and cars for sale. This paper is such an informative tool that Josh and I will soon be featured in it. Apparently we are hot news. They would like a picture of me Josh and Hugo to be added to the article. Yes there will be an article.

Family/Friends:-This section can be left unsaid because its so understood. But at the same time, it’s something that I need to say. With having spent 23 years of my life in NJ, all the people I know and love are there (or within driving distance). There is a small part of me that wants to cry everyday because being in Nevada is more then just a vacation or a visit to a church. This is my life now. I know that God brought us here and I do not regret it or question His will, but I am still human and I am still an emotional person. When we first got here one of the members on the church said "welcome home". I smiled politely but suppressed tears at the same time. Later I asked Josh if it was OK if I didn't think of this place as home yet. He reassured me that that was fine and I felt better. It's not that I don't want to make out here Home... I just have to much back in NJ to just drop it like that. Maybe I'm just a way to attached 23 year old but I don't care. I love my family and friends back east and I don't think that will ever change.

Mom and Dad- thank you so much for everything over the past 23 years. You have been such an example to me! I hope you guys know what an intricate part you have played in my relationship with God. With out your support and His leading I don't know where I would be or who I would be married to. I love you both and I can't wait for you guys to get out here!!!! I love you guys and miss you tons!

Crisp family- Leave it to me to move away right when you guys get back to NJ! I'm so glad that Lord has lead you back to NJ. This is a new season for you and your family and I hope I can still be a part of it just in long distance. Make sure you keep blogging even though the Entwistle family is around I still need to know whats going on.

Hulfish Family- Thanks for always letting me have a place to eat my lunch when I could not stand at being at work. Thanks for being an encouragement to me in ever aspect of life. I'm glad we have had more things in common over the years. Thanks for caring so much.

Entwistle family- You guys are so awesome! You have been such an instrument in my life. I love you guys so much and I miss you everyday. Thank you for all the words of wisdom and for being there for me whenever I needed a good cry or gross medical advice. Hope you guys can make it out here for some awesome snowboarding!

Like I said before... I look forward to blogging about all the fun happenings here at church. And then once the baby comes I'm sure you'll all get so tired of just looking at pictures of our new one. I miss you all and you are in my prayers.

Things to remember

Most of you who read this already know that my grandmother Entwistle went to be with Jesus on Monday night. It's something so bitter sweet because we are selfish humans and we want those that we love to be around. On the other hand, as members of the Lords family, we are happy to know that she is in Heaven. A place that we will all be. In heaven there is no more sadness, no more pain, no more med's, just rejoicing with the angles because our god is a gracious and good God.
For all who knew my grandmother they would say that she had a good life. She has a wonderful husband who loved her very much. I remember seeing them in church every Sunday. He would help her walk up the three steps in front while carrying her Bible for her. They would always sit to the far left side of the church and the pew with the same couples in front and behind them. When my grandmother was not sitting in service she was serving in the nursery. She has always loved kids. Even in her later days her face would always light up when she was around kids. I guess she would love kids because she was a fantastic mother to 7 children.
I love my grandmother, and I'm so grateful for the time and love she poured into her kids. Because she did, I have a fantastic father who loves the Lord, his wife, his kids and his gran kids (not to mention the grand dogs). I love my family and I am proud to have strong Entwistle blood running in my body.